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www.theselby.com makes me want to find an art love and make him do art around me and fall asleep in colors! and also he could use all of the things i bring from around the world? i want live in high places and sherpa sherp.
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| mojitos my old friend |
[26 Apr 2009|08:29pm] |
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i love mojitos i love drinking i have been such a happy drunk this weekend. me and my friend krista went on my first bar hopping experience on friday night and i got shmashed, and then saturday night i also got even more drunker on whiskey and beer and coke with friends and i talked with kenny on the phone the whole walk home. that boy is the cutest and he made fun of me all during work today in such a nice way! i like summertime for summertime kisses, no secret there. and in general, ever since spring kicked in i have been getting just enough attention from the fellas and feeling quite comfortable in my skin in a sexxy way too.
it really means something to feel love in DC from a really solid couple of friends and adults too for that matter. i have adult friends here in a way that is weird, but not for me. like i know for a fact there are adults who i work with at the IRC and at johnsons who would want to just go out and chill with me in a fun mutually relaxed way- i don't know too many people who can say that at least among other sophomores in school. I don't really know why that is?
school is almost DONE mwahahahaaa
summer summer i will make outs with kenny in summer. and be drunk all summer. and sleep in sometimes. and make money! Young and Alive aint nothin but trouble and fun!
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| wu-tang in my ears |
[13 Apr 2009|03:00pm] |
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sometimes i catch myself really being done with people's shit like, when friends start feeling real dysfunctional i can't handle, and I just ditch out of their lives for a hot second, only to reemerge when word is that they're feeling better. i don't know, maybe at school it is just that i am so busy, but i am struggling with this, cuz of my buddy anthony.
his loan for school failed and now hes thinking about leaving school early,because it is so much debt and banks won't give him cash and he wants to join the marines. it blew my mind, he is literally a signature away from enlisting without finishing school. he would fucking go to Afghanistan.
he is a smart cookie too. really smart and it is just a shame, maybe this is insensitive or some shit but like he called me and asked to come up last week and we stayed up with kb for like 3 hour talking about it and i hope he doesnt sign with all my heart. what a mess. she got her dad (the general) to talk to him, theyre having a dinner date tonight in our apartment to work out his head a little.
i just see signing up for the armed service as signing up for a death sentence or like a sentence to seriously need therapy and to get your shit worked out when you get back. like signing up to have your mind blown by badness in the world at the very least.
there is always another choice. there are some people who become men in the military, and there are some men who become broken in the military and there are no guarantees.
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| goodlife on the roll |
[06 Apr 2009|03:26pm] |
since it has been getting warmer out we've been having open windows times all the times, and its really nice and a little breezy all the time. the kitten is still little and he finds the warmest spots: ie, your lap, hair, nookscrannies, laptop keyboard, sunshine spots to nap in. it is awesome to have a lil schnooks who wants to just snug and then jump around when he's all reenergized.
a fluff muffin!
and the florist is hopping with springtime cuties. and so many flowers so many flowers!
lay me out in a bed of fluffy hydrengas and dress me in gerber daisies and play me music with daffodils and snapdragons and bop some chrysanthemums around for a bebop finale! we could bring a flower big band to the alice and wonderland birthday party for my buddy jenna on saturday. I may just do it!
almost done school too. end in sight = rawkin' son!
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[23 Mar 2009|09:35pm] |
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katherine got a kitten- his name is tentatively gazpacho, nicknamed gus. he is a little gray black tabby with big green eyes and he is about 9 weeks? totally cute. i am a moron for this! omg right now he is pouncing with his little toy fish around the apartment! we gave him a sink bath earlier and then he dried off and got totally cuddled and a little napping while we considered names.
permenant spazzing 24/7 should ensue.
<3
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[11 Mar 2009|12:02am] |
sometimes in the best kinds of sleepiness, i can listen to HP- goblet of fire on CD and have vinny cut off the circulation to my left leg as i drift off. that's a nice place to be, and makes me glad i came home.
:)
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| best advice i ever got |
[04 Mar 2009|06:38pm] |
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"life is about minimizing regret. you're still /young/ and you haven't completely blown it yet. so don't start now."
from 30 ROCK oh yeah guys- sitcom comedy explains my life.
except not. i am going to fail this shit unless i study and write chinese all winter break. and email my professor that essay by midnight tonight. i wish i could skip school and just be in charge of running a nonprofit ngo already, but that ain't happening. i am not FDR nor somebody else who earned sometimes average grades in college and then went on to be the BOSS.
i am just not that cool. so i have to earn the grades and beast the tests. i need that shit to work.
also i think i write one of these stupid entries about i need to recollect my shit like at least thrice annually, but sometimes, i need to post a pep-tide pep talk. and now is that time.
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| keeping up the day to day |
[23 Feb 2009|07:38pm] |
well tonight i was supposed to go to a mos def concert, and i paid for the concert ticket that i ordered online with my parents credit card, without checking that anyone would come with me. usually i like to do stuff by myself like that, but it is really cold and windy out, and it is warm and i am writing a paper. so i think i'm gonna put that shit on the internet and let some other person take that. maybe. its kind of last minute, so we'll see.
whatever, i just want some company for this venture and nobody is up for it and might as well just sit in and enjoy the peace i got. write my paper at a leisurely effective pace, take a chill pill.
my mom was real fun this weekend, got me some really stunner cute new shoes, classy and sassy.
whatevers, back to work. is it retarded to not go to this concert? i guess i just don't care enough.
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| bali h'ai |
[22 Feb 2009|11:40pm] |
come to me come to me, where the sky meets the sea
i hate work, but i still nerd out for these classes. wtf, hating school only because of the obligation... and the group projects.
if only if only
:)
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[16 Feb 2009|12:30pm] |
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my valentines could have won prizes for doing things that a lady should do on valentines! with out a prearranged escort to around the town that is. it was awesome and perfect and then the next day was pretty dandy and now i am pretty dandy. i love having katherine back. i love my friends here when they kick in and are ok with being picked up and ready to have fun. i love my mom for sending me valentines day meatballs. i love everyone close to me in my life right now. i love the florists better than anything.
i wish that there was a person version of a calla-lily. i mean like a calla-lily man. he has a sense of humor, but is upright and good. i got to swing dance with the sweetest guy on valentines and he didnt even have a beard but he had glasses and a great smile and it was so ideal. i didnt even need to think about it. he was headed back to milwaukee in the morning! lol i loved it.
delightful off to evolution of jazz and blues, but i thought i would let people know. things can be okay, even after the worst kind of week. and now i feel lighter. what a better way to be. it is a good sign that i feel like myself when i am glad and light.
:) <3
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[09 Feb 2009|07:03pm] |
miles davis - maiysha
i think in the soundtrack of life, this is the music i want to die to, and it had better be exciting. i want to be born to belle & sebastian, middle school through listz's consolation in e-minor, love in devendra and joanna, dance in ludacris and work in motown greatest hits.
you? :)
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| i love saturday mornings |
[07 Feb 2009|10:22am] |
this morning Katherine woke up at 7 because she is going on a cruise with her brother. he came back from his service in the army in Afghanistan over break, and apparently they pay you a triple rate or something, so he asked his lil sister to go with him to the Bahamas because otherwise he would have been going alone. i made her Katherine-style trail mix because shes allergic to nuts and loves chocolate chips more than anyone i know.
I am alone here for a week and i think i may need to consider my couch bumming options. i hate hate hate living alone, i am not built for it, and katherine knows it, she basically scolded me for not having someone lined up by the time she left to stay here.
mermermerrr i didnt even realize i was dependent until she left when we usually have comfy sleeping timess.... i feel retarded
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| fault lines |
[29 Jan 2009|11:45am] |
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i am over extended. i need to cut back on something and right now it is looking like that will have to be school, because i need money and i love refugees and i love intoxication.
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| delighted to meet you |
[25 Jan 2009|08:13pm] |
sometimes i think i know people better or not as well as i do. and then i make some little rash decisions about how safe they are or how much they make me insecure.
this all effects whether or not i want to make out with them. some times i catch myself just having all of this excess energy all that wants to go towards one kind of thing, can you guess what that is? and then i feel like a teenage boy, and i'm only halfway wrong so how bad does that seem?
and i know they told us that we get feelings and urges that are natural, but i feel like this is why i need a vibrator otherwise i say such inappropriate things! like that last ommission!
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| inaugural update |
[18 Jan 2009|02:00am] |
it is so cold that when i wore a skirt tonight my legs were bright red when i got back to the apartment, and now, even under comforter, fleece pjs and toast and tea fillings, they are numb and separate from the rest of my body.
the whole town is packed to the gills with people, and they are mainly darker complected actually! i used to get frustrated that whenever people talked about barack's election, they would have to mention him as our first black president specifically, but seeing all of these masses of people, and feeling this relief in the air and how just light hearted all of the preparation seems to be i can't help but renege my instinctual recoil from racial discourse. tonight apparently there was some huge party held by AU through some club, and Howard University students and locals were all invited. it looked pretty large, the metro stop was packed with people all coming back from it too as well as kids looking for taxis and stuff. something must have gotten out of hand, or something, because one of the girls coming away from the campus stopped me and my friends and was looking for the best place to catch a cab around there. she said they used tear gas and mace? on the kids because it got wicked out of control. i wonder how things happened... there seems like a possibility for some racial somethin behind this heightened reaction, but i wasn't there and don't know yet.
tonight i went to a jazz club and drank wine and had some good ol DC times with buddies. the town looks great and everyone is just waiting for tuesday basically. it should be wild.
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| new years resolutions |
[06 Jan 2009|09:54pm] |
i know we're a few days in, but here goes:
keep on going and have good fun
don't live with fear
just conquer it! like its an easy thing
savor the savory and swallow the bitter
digested it makes its way to the best kind of end, shit it out
shout it out and no stains are there
vulgarity is just another way for language to amuse anyone, but keep in mind that little kids don't need that.
they're pretty easy to entertain
riding bikes all over the place lets you see the world from above ground and keeps the spirit awake in journey
getting bogged down is no way to keep going
and even if you don't know where exactly you're going, it is okay to stay in motion
even if all you want is to stay where you have been that takes the motion of the world spinning, and you have to do something to ensure that you don't end up upside down eventually.
tadaaaa
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