wu-tang in my ears
sometimes i catch myself really being done with people's shit like, when friends start feeling real dysfunctional i can't handle, and I just ditch out of their lives for a hot second, only to reemerge when word is that they're feeling better. i don't know, maybe at school it is just that i am so busy, but i am struggling with this, cuz of my buddy anthony.

his loan for school failed and now hes thinking about leaving school early,because it is so much debt and banks won't give him cash and he wants to join the marines. it blew my mind, he is literally a signature away from enlisting without finishing school. he would fucking go to Afghanistan.

he is a smart cookie too. really smart and it is just a shame, maybe this is insensitive or some shit but like he called me and asked to come up last week and we stayed up with kb for like 3 hour talking about it and i hope he doesnt sign with all my heart. what a mess. she got her dad (the general) to talk to him, theyre having a dinner date tonight in our apartment to work out his head a little.

i just see signing up for the armed service as signing up for a death sentence or like a sentence to seriously need therapy and to get your shit worked out when you get back. like signing up to have your mind blown by badness in the world at the very least.

there is always another choice. there are some people who become men in the military, and there are some men who become broken in the military and there are no guarantees.